My journey to becoming a single mom and finding God after divorce began when my husband left me and our daughters. His family played a role in our breakup. When his mother passed away, our marriage ended. He became distant and cold, abandoning us in a way that left me completely alone. I was forced to become everything for my girls overnight. At that time, neither of us had positive examples of healthy marriages, and we were both navigating a broken and dark place.
I remember telling him I wanted to be a good wife—but I didn’t know what that really looked like. That’s when God started talking to me.
Raised as a Jehovah’s Witness, I had never stepped foot in a church. But in January 2006, my husband took me to church for the first time. The choir sang Martha Munizzi’s “Because of Who You Are”, and I felt God speaking directly to me.
Midway through the song, they sang, “Jehovah Nissi, Lord, you reign in Victory. Jehovah-Jireh, you’re my provider. Jehovah Shalom, Prince of Peace, and I worship you because of who you are.” I thought, “God, You are really talking to me.” That moment marked the beginning of my faith journey.
From Saved to Alone
I got saved in March 2006. By April 1—April Fool’s Day—my husband left. Just like that, he cut all ties to me and my daughters. I was devastated. I cried, called him, and often got no response. Sometimes, he answered the phone with another woman in the background. My heart burned with anger and rage. One night, I even planned to hurt him the way he hurt me—but my pastor called at 1 a.m. and said, “Sister Monique, God said don’t do it.”
That night, I realized God was real. He knew my heart, my thoughts, and my pain—even things I hadn’t told a soul.
Choosing Love Over Anger
Faced with a choice, I chose not to respond with anger and hate, but rather llove. I told my ex-husband, “I love you enough to let you go. And if you return, I love you enough to accept you back.”
Then, I focused on my relationship with God. I read the Bible day and night, waking up with it on my chest, tears soaking the pages. One verse changed everything: “I am a jealous God, and no man will take my place.” I realized I had made my ex-husband my god—and now God would be the center of my life.
Becoming a Single Mom and Finding God After Divorce
God guided me through the five stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I grieved the end of my marriage, the loss of a partner, and the life I had imagined. Slowly, He rebuilt my broken heart.
Learning to love myself again became possible. God removed toxic people, places, and habits from my life, and standing face-to-face with Him brought healing, peace, and a new foundation for the future.
Healing My Heart Between Me and God
My journey was not about my children, my family, or my ex-husband. It was about me and God. Above all, I learned to love myself fully before entering another relationship. I wanted to be whole, not carry my past into my future.
Today, I stand on a firm foundation, with a giving heart and renewed purpose. My faith restored my life, my love, and my family. All of this began because my ex-husband introduced me to Christ—even though he could not stay in my life.
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